The First One :)

 Hi! My name is Lily and this is my first blog post! 

To start with a little bit of backstory, I graduated from college in a degree I no longer wanted this past December. I had been pursuing medical school, then physical therapy school, and then maybe a doctorate degree in exercise physiology. As I was moving through my college education I realized I became more and more confused and unhappy. But I wasn’t sure why. I had all these great things happen! I got married to the love of my life, had friends who supported me in all my endeavors, and a religion that gave me a solid foundation. Something was missing and I wasn’t sure what it was.

With a year left in my schooling and after being married only 3 months I left this religion. It felt freeing but also confusing because all my friends still belonged there. I started living 2 different versions of myself. The version people had known before and the person I was becoming. She loved coffee, and reading, and farmers markets! I felt like she was the person I really wanted to become. I wasn’t sure how to tell my friends about leaving the church because I was so afraid of losing them. Then, a year later I graduated.

After taking my last official college test I should have been ecstatic! And I was… for about 2 hours. And then I had this overwhelming emptiness that I had no idea who I was or what I wanted to do with my life. I told everyone I was pursuing my embroidery business full time, but after only a month of doing this I experienced burnout and depression over something I loved so much just months before. My other business friends were doing amazing and I felt like I was just falling behind. But I was just sad and realized working alone, from home, was not going to work for me. I needed more connection and conversation to keep my cup full.

After some reflection over the past 3 months I’ve decided to become happy with what I have. I know I don’t do well pursuing my business full time so why am I comparing myself to those who love that lifestyle? 

So I’ve started working at a coffee shop and with Alpine Embroidery I’ve decided to be happy with the connection I create with people! I don’t need to become a viral sensation or always be sold out of products! If I can help educate a few people a week on upcycling and maybe just make people think twice before buying from a fast fashion company I’ll be happy!

So cheers to bringing the passion back and being happy to have an outlet that does not have to become a full time job just because that’s what most people want!